"Being Difficult"


its probably just me or just her, my mother, annoying the hell out of me.
i sometimes cant understand my self whether i do or i dont understand my
self. i love being alone but if i am i feel like i'm people forget
about me. yeah.., maybe its just how people is.
all messed up, if its not then i dont what to call it.. imperfect perhaps?

you might be wondering what the heck i am talking about,
but the truth is, i dont know either.
i'm just letting my fingers write what ever they want.
its 11 pm. i'm watching desperate house wifes.
my brother is watching something in you tube.
i cant hear:
cha-cha-cha mirigo cha-cha-cha 2x
cha-cha-cha..!!!!

in front of me is the screen(ofcorz) and a cup of cold coffee.,
a sharpener, a comb(not mine), a pick, eraser, the thing that you use
to erase ball pen mess, a all-in-one remote control, a metal ruler, some speakers.

in my right side is a bunch of cables, a pair of dumbbells, electric fan, painting made by
my brother, a shelf contains some figurines.

and in my left hand side is the living room. you probably know
what would you see in a normal living room, right?


now, I'm pre-enrolled in the University.
One more step to go and I'm done with this freaking process
that takes ages to finish.


i almost remember, i already finish the book me and my cousin borrowed
from the library. now, i have nothing else to read.
she is planing another girls day out. I'm not sure with it my self.
but i think i will because i'm going to help her pass her application form
for the same school i applied for.

I'm trying very hard to get back in shape. I wake up 7 am to play
badminton for about 1 and a haft hour with my mother.
(7 am is early...FOR ME)
i only eat two meals a day. in this house/family, we dont prepare anything
for launch. but you are welcome to some fruits.
banana, apple, hmmm.., banana




something happened. its not the water line. I cant take a shower until
tomorrow. I havent been in the shower for two days now.
i feel sooo sticky.., god...!! why did it have to be like this.

oh.., i'm suffering sunburn on my back. i forgot to put sunblock on it.
goshhh...!!! this is what happens to people wearing backless
without thingking on putting sunblock.
now i have to take my bra off every now and then.

oh.., its full moon..!!!

well, whatever..,


DREAM ON..!!