The Broken Phone

I got on a big fight that leaves my phone broken and smash.
Maybe I just over reacted, but I'm totally angry that if I don't break something I might go crazy.

Of all the things I can break, why my phone? Well, its least valuable in my hand. I cant break my MP3, I cant destroy my Lovely book collection. I cant break my mirror. So, it left me no choice, so I smash my phone on the wall. Leave it for a while then pick it up again, break it from the inside and "accidentally" throw it out side. I'm not BITTER.
That's just how it is and that what I am when I'm totally pissed. I have to break something. My phone needs to retire anyway. Its like 5 years old or older.

So for now, I have to suffer. Phone less for I don't know how long, because I AM NOT BUYING A NEW ONE.

My Dead End

I've been doing things i know will help me in the future, but i just cant bring my self to take it seriously. I know its a waste of money and time but i don't think my brain realizes this. this suck in every possible way. every corner i turn into and every idea i come up with.

it feels like I'm in a dead end. a dead end that you can never turn back and start over again. No options to take, no choices to make. just plain DEAD END. The feeling that you are so helpless that you cant even move a limb to climb up the wall because no matter how much you climb or jump you know you cant reach the top and save your self. this feeling sucks in every possible way and it sucks more when you realize the people you needed the most in times like this turn their back on you because they know you may drag them down with you. Of course I'm exaggerating, I don't have that kind friend, but sooner or later, I will. By that time I dont think I will still keep living.

I know people will say: "everything will be alright" or "don't worry, its all gonna be OK". those words are that word that people don't wanna hear when they are in this situation. Its really irritating to hear those words specially when they don't know what your going through and not understand what is it for you.

For me the words "You can make it, I know you can". Oh hell I can. I'm straggling so much to the point that I'm about to give up, you fool. I'm not as strong as you think I am. Its so frustrating hearing those words over and over again like a broken record that drives you nuts.

But anyway, life has its own roller coaster ride, but sometimes life gets too excited and over do it to the point that people has to let go.

Shop More

I will assume everyone knows "Pet Society". If you dont, you can google it.

So heres the story:

Me and my cousin is all crazy about this game "Pet Society" on Facebook. We are so crazy that we actually bought the Blue Cash. It a different kind of money that you can use on the specific shop ONLY. It cost each of us 17.44 $Nz for 55 Blue Cash.
Last saturday (august 15) we bought it and it regestered into our accounts early this morning. So, we are all excited and all of that. We shop none stop today. Its the only thing I want to do today. After class I went directly to the Library to use one of the computers so that i can play.
So here I am, I stopped because my 55 Blue Cash is now down to 14 BlueCash.

I shop too much.

A Whole New Dream

Last saturday night, I dream of Charlie again. Yes, He is Charlie. I'm telling you his name now because that dream tell me something. The feeling whenever I dream of him before is gone. I dont miss him anymore. Its over, no more daydreaming of him coming back to me. No more hopes that keep stabing me whenever I dream about him. But now? nothing. Its all gone.

Its been 4 years, yeah that long. I hope this is really the end. I really hope so.

My dream is that I'm in a bus stop. Waiting for his bus to arrive, I sat on the pavement. Its took ages but I still waited. When he finally arrive we went to my house. I introduce him to my family. The wierd thing is that everybody is laughting at us. I drag him to a park. We walked like a couple. It feels so good to hold his hand once again. Then my dream has ended with the sound of my alarm.



♣Lady RedBird♣

So Loooooooong

Hi, havent written anything in a long time so i'll just write anything I can remember in the past few months.

• I started twitting (as in using Twitter). Lot of posers and fakes in there. I dont even know if I'm following the real ones.
• Second or 'B' semester has already begun and its already the 2nd week.
• I drop one of my papers* and now I'm carrying only 3. Its much easier this ways. Not much preassure.
• The other week I witnessed a Cat Fight**. Its not really exciting because both girls dont know how to punch. Their fist is flying all oever the place, amd guese where it took place? At the Bus Depo***, lots of bastards is cheering for them to carry on fighting. Its not a good fight I tell you. If its me, I would be in jail right now.
• Oh! I almost forgot. I'm going to Uni with my brother, cousins and friends now. Another reason why this semester is much better than the previous one.
• Me and my brother is classmates in two of my papers. I dont know if its a good thing or bad thing.

In case you dont know:

*Papers: Subjects

**Cat Fight: Girl Fight

***Bus Depo: Terminal

3 Natural things That Fascinate Me the Most

I was searching random images in Google when I decide to what
do I love about nature.
Well, nature is amazing in a way you wouldn't think its possible.
I'm not sure if some of the images below is edited to look great but they are
all awesome.

First is rainbow, imagine how brilliant the creator is.



Lightning. You might think that I'm a weird, but I do think that I am. I always
think is a glorious sight, specially the sound that comes after it.




Aurora. I have never seen one in my life but someday somehow I will be.
So watch out.
I dont know how aurora happens but all I know is that its beautiful.




I just told you how great nature is and what is my favorite part of it,
so what's your?

Series Of Things

First thing:

Every monday morning, the first thing I do when I arrive early in school is grab a NEXUS mag in the hallway and read until the tutor is in. My favorite column of that mag is the "Lettuce of the Week" and "Runt All you Want" (or something like that).

I always ignore some peoples articles and go directly to the said columns because its fun reading what people think is 'Shit'. One time her runt is about her angry vagina being ill-treated, and another is about smokers and Carpark. I'm very impress how people in this country is very stressed with parking lots.

So, I started reading....BOOM!! The letuce of the week is a human complaining about people runting shit and he/she is tired of reading it every monday morning and the school is not that bad. I was like "What The F**k Dude, people are just doing that because they the price "Voucher of the Bookstore" when your runt is the best out of anyone and lets face the fact that people are a little oportunist sometimes. When we are given the chance to say what we want to say and what we want to be heard we grab it".

Let them say what they want and they didnt say that the Uni is all bad, they are just stating thier opinion. Thats all. LOL, that guy is drunk.

Second:

Phil10102/103: Critical Thinking

This paper is about "Arguament", although I dont love it I still continue to come to class. I listen to the tutor and take notes and sometimes reading the book. I'm having a very hard time not to oversleep. Alarming my phone on the maximum volume.

I never been late in this paper until now. And to make matters worst, its our Final Exam. I arrive their about 20 mins late. Good thing I finished it on time. lol. It could have been worst.

Third:

Zee fixed my site. Including the comment box (i havent got any until now), my cbox (^O^) and the post titles. My cousin is the greatest things you can have. Yeah, I lab her. SALAMAT again. XD

Fourth:

Its Freezing Cold...!!!