"must be..,"




i'm irritated with the space bar of this computer.
u have to press it a bit harder than usual.
Urg... I wish its mine so i can throw it out the window.
anyway, i'm not sure what to write of all the things happened to me
this week.

the graduation letter:

my brother and I is in the same school but different campus.
and be both finish our course last year but
will graduate march this year.
so, our graduation letter arrived yesterday(his and mine)
so my little sister is handling our letter to me and my cousin jay2x
(who is sleeping over in my house)
I'm so excited to open it and see what does it say.
to my surprise the starting of the letter was:

"Dear Lowell Patrick"
(my brothers name)

I check the envelop to check if its really
address to me, and it is.

I'm like What the Hell?
wheres my graduation letter?
my brother just opened his and
and enclose was mine.
Me and my cousin just lough to what happened.

so yeah..,for that short second I feared
that i wont graduate.
i'm dead relief about that.

I am really graduating.., 18 years old,
graduating from college..? how cool is that...!!
but I planned to study again.
so, bring it on...!!

Dream on..!

I'm dead Bored

ok..., who am I?

THE DREAMER....!!!!

that's right baby...

(L-R: Lonely Christmas, Definition of ME,
New Moon Book Cover, Candle light)

Whenever I'm in the mood
i make some drawings
sometimes, i copy
sometimes i don't

here are some of my habits.
I like my Color pencils to be always sharp.
and i don't throw those away coz
i just like to keep them...

Oh.., thats their spacial sharpener.
I mean, only for my color pencils.

My beloved color pencils, all have sharp edges.

I just like how it looks.


Dream On...!

yeah....!! i did it....


its been such a mission to wake up before 10am,
hahahahaha......., i'm so proud of my self..,
i have to exercise today so that my body will get tired
so that i can sleep early tonight..,
:D
so yeah.., i'm going to the UNI today, after launch
to pass my application form,
i'm quite nervous coz maybe
they wont accept me.
i dont know if they would but,
i cant help my self from thinking all those negative things.
"stupid brain"

oh..., i drunk 1 glass milk with 6 tsp. of milo.
it still taste like milk.
("i dont like milk")
i did it because i want to fall asleep
immediately. it seems to work a little so
i'm going to do it again tonight.
see if it still work.

so, have a great day today..!!



DREAM ON...!!

tragedy


i feel sad for her. i wish i could make things better for her.
but i cant. shes in T.A. and i'm in Hamilton.
now, all i can do is give her my whole heart support.

how i wish i could be at her side
to listen to her.
how i wish i was the ice cream she is eating now
to comfort her.
(hmmmmm.., ice cream)

anyway..., good luck girl..., i know you can do it
:D


love,
"the dreamer"

Last Nights Dream
"Ballroom Dancing"

whattt....! yeah.., ball room.
haven't i told you?
I can dance baby..! hahaha..., yeah..,
do you know "Take the Lead" by Antoneo Banderas?
its a movie about ballroom dancing. and its actually base on real life story .
Now, in my dream I was dancing in the competition.
oh yeah..,I'm dancing with a girl so its odd.
girl-girl in a competition.
this girl i'm dancing with is stranger.
so, we are just dancing for fun. swinging in every direction
we like. we are laughing to our selves then suddenly we are winning.
ohh...yeah..,

i just realize. i still dream 60x every night but the
problem is i cant remember any of them.
except for this one.
anyway, the academic records that I phoned yesterday
is here already. boy.., they're fast..!
so, tomorrow, I will go to the enrollment office in the university.
wish me luck..!! nOO...! hope me luck...!!
wahahaha..., so yeah..,
i wake up at 10:15 this morning so i'm making progress.

:D

Problem #1



hey.., I've got a problem.
I cant dream....!!
shoot...!! where can you see
a dreamer who cant dream?
O.M.G. i don't know whats happening
in the brain of mine who was once called brilliant
by me cousin. I don't think its working properly.
so,

"WANTED"
BRAIN FIXER


nah.., just kidding.

anyways, i'm waiting for my Academic records
to arrive so i can finish my enrollment
in the university.
i'm quite excited about it.


oh., I'm broke.
I've ZERO money baby. LOL.
so, i have nothing to do until Wednesday.

yesterday, we have our movie marathon
i didn't like it because its all horror movie
or suspense or something with monsters and killers in it.
i just hide in my bed room and play the guitar.

oh yeah, my planning on making a wish list
like movies that i wanted to see, or things that i wanted to get before 2009
end. its going to be divided into 2 parts

"HOPE List"
and
"WISH List"

do you know whats the difference?
no? Google it. LOL


PROBLEM #2

i have problem sleeping before 12am.
coz i got use sleeping at dawn.
so if you have any advice please write it on my CBOX.
MILK doesn't work on me.
i need stronger than milk but milder that pills.
LOL.

oh anyway, what do you call this sickness?

:D
[:
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:D

I meet a new friend from a hundred miles away..,



hey....!!! before i start.
just got from a 2 night sleep over in
my uncles place to baby sit his daughters
when he goes to work.
(you can never leave small children at home without
an adult, if you do.., you will have a sleep over behind the cold
bars for about more than a month):D

so.., yeah. his from Philippines, 17.
yehey....!!! were kinda similar.
i love anime's and he dose too.,
he love animals, and so do i..,

so, lingaw kaau ko...!!!
trans : so.., I'm so happy...!!!


and, pa.cute kaau xa..,

whoa...!!!


i play guitar., and i have this song in my mind
but i dont know what chords could i play them.

so this cousin of mine who usually makes songs is with me
to baby sit our uncles dauthers for a night., coz he works at night.
(yeahhh!!!)
and, i told her about it and she made me sing this song i made which
is only made up of two verses.
trhen, i ask her to finish it for me.
and she did..! and it turns out to be great...!!

im so happy, she put a chorus on it and bridge too..,
so, if she will record it i would let everyone hear it..,

the story is about a girl dreaming(me) of the boy(him),
they use to be together but the boy lost interest
in her and left her. but the girl still keeps dreaming
but everytime she wakes up
she would scold her self for dreaming about him.
and remind her self that he is gone and he would never come back to her.
amen.

kidding..!!!!

the title is "remind myself"

how i wish he can hear it..,

:(

its been a while


its been a while since i written anything, its also
been a while since i dream of something.
i stopped dreaming about him and it makes me feel
reliefe and annoyed.
reliefe for after 2 years..! i finally getting better at forgetting me.
annoyed because if i dont dream about him, there's nothing left to
dream about. so, i'm still alive and dreamless every night.

whats happening to me now?
well, you can letirally call me a vampire now.
i'm awake from dusk till dawn :)
hehe.., not really but, i wake up 1pm.
and go to bed at 3am.
hahaha.., there...! i'm a vampire..,

and...! my mother is really getting mad at me coz
all i do is just sleep.
so, what i did this very day is enroll for the
course i choose(although i wasnt finish yet)
and prove her that i'm not that stupid and lazy at all.
XD :) XD :D


happy..!! coz i'll be studying at uni...!!!!
class starts at the 2nd of march...!!!

wish me luck....!!!

♣-----Kawhia Fishing-----♣

Fishing..!

So, we've gone fishing to Kawhia (pronounce as Kafia)
here some photo of what i did when I'm bored waiting for my
father, uncle and brothers to catch some fish...


"Mermaid"

actually i'm shouting for my sister to take a photo of the thing
before the wave washes it off.
It doesn't have a face yet.

I maid that for the fact that I'm at sea.
I'm telling my self that if i believe in vampires
i also have to believe to the other creatures
that is also a part of some people imagination.






"flower"

I have no idea why i curve a flower.
maybe because i always want to make one,
ever since i was in high school.




"Do you know that is it?"

imagine that thing is red. i'm sure you've already know.
anyway, its haft buried because i cant make a whole one out of fine sand.

"I'm still a twilighter no matter what they say"





Lastly, me, the dreamer.

i still don't know what would my logo be.
i maid one but i don't think its good enough.






"what do you think?"

"Dream On"

Everything

♣=Everything=♣

setting: family camping or i think its swimming.

venue: part camping site, part swimming pool, and part of my aunts house.

date: no idea

So, its was a family gathering on my moms side.


Changing

I was looking for something to wear to swim. I was very uncomfortable for some reasons.
I look down to see my self and the problem is their.
I'm walking in the pool side without a top. and i don't know but i didn't panic.(stupid)
Its crazy because i only have my left arm to cover up.
then i found my bra and a singlet. so problem solve.




Try Singing?


I was walking towards the poolside where my cousins are busy singing
on the karaoke machine. I'm just listening to them when suddenly they offer me the mic.
The pitch of the song was too high for me to sing so tried to push it away. Then suddenly
somebody grab the mic and sing the remaining lyrics of the song which i cant remember.
I was shock, not because of what the person have done for me but for who the person was.
Its was HIM.


Zee, meet him


I dont know what happen after the karaoke thing but here we are now
and in the pool with HIM and what shock me most is that ZEE was their?
What on earth is she doing here? And she sat next to HIM.
*ZEE knows everything about him (in my point of view).
She was eying me. oh noh..! her eyes have this "so-this-is-him" look.
I introduce him to her still cant look at her in the eye.
Saying he was a high school friend. no need to tell here much more details
for she already know.